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Fear of abandonment is the first thing which is common in both Narcissists and codependent Empaths. It keeps them both stuck in a toxic cycle.
Codependents take abuse only because of their fear of abandonment. Narcissists manipulate people, so when they sense that their mask is falling off and the victim can see it, they escalate the abuse.
Fear of abandonment makes people not trust, not be in touch with their emotions and run away at the slightest chance of abandonment. Where it gets difficult is maybe there is no one even thinking about abandoning the person, but they will keep reacting to their own fear and ruin a stable relationship. It causes a lot of inner turmoil to accept the truth.
This fear makes you feel like even good things are too good to be true. It’s an inner child wound and most of the time it comes from childhood trauma. The person needs to do inner child work, work on self-love and improve the self-talk, replace negative thoughts with rational thoughts & positive affirmations. And sometimes let that fear become real, let someone abandon you, process all your emotions that come after it for once, the fear will be gone. Time heals everything.
I know it’s easier said than done. But a temporary pain can heal your fears for a lifetime. You stayed with this fear for decades and it doesn’t feel good to live in fear. Let’s overcomes it for once and enjoy a happy emotional life.
All the best for your self-love and healing journey. Healing is selfless deed and Universe appreciates & supports everyone who is trying to heal themselves. When you heal, blessings will soon be revealed. Sending you love and light XOXOXO
When you have more uninvited hidden followers than official followers. They are haters but also the first fans.
I even have proof about this.
Who noticed first when I wanted to start YouTube channel? Haters. Who noticed first when I came out of depression? Haters. Who noticed first my skills in painting? Haters. Who noticed first when I was changing my career? Haters. Who were my first customers when I started my own business? Haters.
Always be grateful for whatever comes your way, no one will teach you more lessons than a hater.
P.S. This is something I had written long back but always hesitated to post it on the blog. I learnt this concept from one female YouTuber. But I don’t remember her name now.
Hurting someone’s ego is not a bad thing, not a sin.
Whole life people have tried to abuse me because I challenged their entitled ego. It is really a bad thing to hurt someone’s ego. Or is that about self-respect? Well, entitled ego makes people fake, deceitful, bullies, abusers, manipulators, so I don’t think hurting someone’s ego is a bad thing.
You hurt someone’s ego, i.e. in psychological terms, you cause them an ego injury. So now they think of you as an enemy and want to abuse you to make your life difficult to take revenge. They blame you for hurting them. Wait, what was it that got hurt? ego or self-respect?
Entitled egos are meant to be broken, even everyone’s ego is meant to be broken, at least if you want to grow spiritually and become a self-fulfilled person. Whether you feel inferior or superior, both are coming from a place of ego.
Ego is must to be transcended, it’s a part of awakening. When you shed your false beliefs about yourself, old belief systems, what image society put on you to carry, what opinions and insecurities they put on you, everything needs to be shed, in order to achieve awakening. It’s a painful process, but when you learn to endure pain, you come out stronger. All these things will she like layers of an onion, what will come out at the end, will be your truest, most authentic self, your higher self, your soul.
So next time a Narcissistic toxic person goes “you are hurting me”, throwing toddler tantrums, for causing them an ego injury, for showing them they are not what they think they are. Don’t let their reactions affect you.
It’s the teacher’s day here and I think it’s time to claim something. When I am coaching you through tarot or writing or listening to your problems, what I need back is respect and reciprocated energy. No offence to anyone, but some people don’t understand this concept.
I am always ready to help for free if someone can reciprocate the energy. Money/ time /genuine appreciation is also a form of energy.
People think if they pay healers money they are above us. But they forget that we help them, we save them from months and years of mental stress and we take their negative energies and transmute it into positive. We try to put them on the path to self-reflection, healing and growth.
I hope now everyone gets who is giving more and who deserves more. So please respect what we do and don’t try to act like our boss.
People still respect Babas more than spiritual teachers, because they believe in superstition more than faith. Healers show you what you need to heal, where you need to self reflect, what your wounds are, what your life purpose is, what your karma is, what you need to change about yourself, how you can grow, they remind you of your own power, they put you on the right path to heal your ancestral trauma, they teach you self love and the meaning of life. But still, healers are taken for granted.
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I also want to take time to thank all other healers, earth angels, Lightworkers, tarot readers, Psychics, Spiritual teachers, life coaches who have always helped me through this journey to transform myself into my higher self. It was not possible without all your help.
Let us all Lightworkers thanks our star system team, spirit guides, angels, archangels and ancestors, for always showing us the way when we can’t see the light. They give us unconditional love, help us heal and grow, they provide us protection and support.
I love my spirit team and very grateful for them. Everytime I see a temporary spirit guide leave, I feel a sense of loss but I wish best for their next endeavours. Thanks to all my spirit guides and angels who have helped me all the way through this chaos, we are a team and I will never forget that.
We said goodbyes not knowing it would be the last. We said goodbyes and with that goodbye, I remembered all the times we had said goodbyes to each other. I remembered every time we met and separated.
We met like Romeo and Juliet, like star-crossed lovers I still remember the first moment we locked our eyes The first moment we saw each other in this human form We separated with a promise that you will come back But life took me away from you I hated everyday that I had to live without you And then one day I gave up on life to see you again.
We were young children giving each other company when we had no one else to look up to. And we said goodbye. We never met again cause I left this world.
We met again, this time I had to leave you all by yourself to protect you, I had to sacrifice our love to protect you. We said goodbye again. I returned after all those years of pain, but I had already lost you. I sat there with the regret of leaving you, watching the storm come towards me.
We met again this time you had to leave for the wars, we said goodbye again. I waited whole my life for you to come back till my last breath and I left with a hope to see you again.
We met again, both been torn by this world already, both fighting our demons. I tried to be your light and you tried to be mine. But we said goodbye. I look at the moon and I wonder, would we ever be able to stop saying goodbyes. It happened again, we got stuck in the dark, I wonder if its better to say Goodbyes. You did it, you fought the darkness for us And I don’t have doubts anymore. This time I will not only live you till my dying day But I will be with you till my dying day. There’s won’t be any sad Goodbyes anymore.
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I am a twin flame and this is pretty much my entire love story for 5 incarnations. He’s my muse and I can’t stop myself from writing about him
The fact is, no one ever said to me that I am too blunt or anything I just know it because I am a psychic.
I am a Lightworker and every lightworker has a unique life purpose. One of my spiritual gifts is authenticity, that’s the uniqueness I got as a lightworker. Spirit chooses Lightworkers and engraves light codes in their souls. My soul is engraved with authenticity, because spirit wanted it to be that way. My soul desires to speak the truth with authenticity, this desire is put inside my soul by the divine powers itself, it’s spirit’s own desire.
The second picture is from Insta story, please bear with the typos.
Spirit uses me to send this truth to you, through me. Now when I have come this far on my spiritual journey and in touch with spirit, spirit’s desires are my desires. I am just an instrument now.
Anyways when I used to be scared and try to say the truth indirectly, it didn’t change much, people were still triggered and abused me. I would better be my authentic self if the result is always going to be the same.
Truth hits your soul. Truth triggers you. Truth shatters your illusions. Truth remains the same, no matter how it’s said, with anger or calm, with aggression or with grace, in wars or in peace. What I share is Spiritual truth, divine truth. It’s not your truth or my truth, it’s universal. It’s going to trigger you if you are not in touch with the truth. You don’t like it because it triggers you to do shadow work. That’s exactly spirit wants to achieve, to help your soul grow. Your ego does not like it, because it triggers you. But your soul has been waiting to be triggered, so that it can heal and grow and move towards awakening.
Spiritual awakening is all about seeing truth beyond all your illusions. So if you seek spiritual awakening, first you must be a truth seeker. Your soul wants to be one with the source, one with the truth. It wants the truth to be heard, seen and touched.
What I am doing, may not have been done before, but that’s exactly what spirit wants me to do. To create my own path, following my own calling.
I want us to change the vocabulary here. Truth isn’t blunt, sharp or forceful, it’s just plain without any sugarcoating. It’s just the truth.
I have been learning this lesson in last few days and this describes it perfectly.
My spirit guides have been sending me messages through tarot this week and it has been healing me so much. ❤️
Your vibrational match is people who respect you, who love you for who you are, who know your your worth, who provide the unconditional love that you provide to yourself, not only what you provide to them. Also who provide a room for you to grow and grow with you, spiritually, personally, etc. at all levels.
If that makes you feel like I am looking for soulmates, you are right and yes, this is exactly what I get from my friends and family, they should be my soulmates.
People have been judging me for a few weeks now and I learnt to not give a shit about it, AGAIN.
People who think defending yourself is bad, people who think being in your power is bad, people who think knowing your worth is bad. What you hate about others, says a lot about you.
When you hate someone for speaking their own truth, or maybe sometimes for showing you your truth, it shows how much you try to hide your own truth and to run away from it.
People who you think can become your friends, start falling out after sometime. You thought they could be your friend, but they can’t. That’s why I like to take few months before I get to see the real them, people manage to hide their real self in starting.
Also, people who think I am closed off because I am not open to new people. I am fulfilled with my connections, family and friendships at this time.
People get attached to Lightworkers, because they want to have a happy healthy caring person in their life, it’s like lightworkers attract people like moths to a flame, because people want to feed off of our energy. If I have space for only 4-5 friends in my life, but some 50 people want me in their life. And I start making room to take everyone in, where I don’t even need them, only they need me, that would be a great mess for everyone.
This is what all lightworkers need to know, people not only want to have you in their life, but they hold onto you for dear life, and that can be very suffocating for someone who practices unconditional love. Learn to say no when you just don’t want something, it’s not always necessary to give a reason.
There can be only two ways, either you believe in diversity and inclusion or you don’t. There’s nonin between. If you say you believe it, you have to believe that all people are equal whether it’s a man, a woman, even an animal, LGBTQ, the poor, the rich, this religion, that religion, this country, that country, this state, that state, feminists, entrepreneurs, specially-abled people, spiritual people, witches, Psychics, Gurus, helpers, liberals, white or black, people who live in slums, everything. God created every creation to be equal, earth people decided to separate everything into categories.
Why does a human go towards something that he thinks following it will make him feel more significant than others? Why humans try to conform themselves to a certain belief only because everyone else is following it. And why do we have these quotes running everywhere on the internet, which say “if the majority thinks something is right, then it’s right”.
वसुधैव कुटुंबकम् Bhagwaan Ram, Krishna, Budhdha, Jesus, all of them tried to make you understand this, but no use.
So I am just communicating the same thing that I did today. Since I posted this on Instagram, I felt so much negative energy coming my way. Religious people follow their religion a few days in a year, secular (omnism) people follow their faith 365 days a year. Please do not project your silly habits on me that I did it on purpose on this day (it was Ganesha chaturthi that day). I literally live out of this dimension most of the time, don’t have this much time to think also.
Also, this kind of posts will keep coming. What I am posting, could probably be understood only by high vibrational souls. I don’t post for approval from anyone and that does not stop my work either.
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