I have a lot to write about, couldn’t even decide where to start from.. so I thought I will start with a few answers to the “why”. When people read my story they should understand where I’m coming from.
Awakening.. a big word. Everyone says once you had an awakening, you can’t go back, you can’t un-awaken yourself. Well, whoever said this, was definitely lacking knowledge.. because I have seen myself and my Twinflame cycling back so many times.. everyone who belongs to my Twinflame collective has been going through these cycles.
Twinflames come with a mission on earth to spread love. The journey is not easy and so divine support is always available. Always ask your guides to watch over the connection. Archangel Michael is specially designated to protect the Twinflame connection.
Starseed TFs are quite powerful. So that take on the toughest mission works together.
In my case, my divine masculine is healing a very unconscious ancestral line. I am healing my ancestral line as well, but both lines are very different.
I AM A STARSEED. I am one with the source and I was born to help humanity. I love and long for my star system home. I feel like an alien here and the feeling never goes away. Because I know I am different. Everyone knows I am different.
When I talk about my identity, people think I am talking about aliens. But then they forget that they have done enough to alienate me anyway, even before I revealed my identity. They already know, coz excluding any Starseed has nothing to do with their identity, it’s all about energy.
When starseeds choose to come as twin flames, they have double life-mission. They don’t only have the power of immense light but also the power of immense love. They embody the yin and yang energies to anchor love in this 3D world. This is the double mission.
Starseeds are fated to be together with their twin flame and fulfil their soul mission on earth. They can’t be separated, because fate is always working to bring them together. So that they can follow their soul mission and heal others. Just like a lightworker can’t be kept away from their fate, twin flames can’t be kept away from each other.
There are many types of awakenings, but there is one awakening which is unique, which only starseeds experience.
Emotional awakening happens when an emotional closed off person finally opens it’s his heart. Material Awakening when a person learns there’s no satisfaction in the material realm. Spiritual awakening when people become open to soul consciousness.
And then there is Starseed Awakening. An awakening different than everything else. All starseeds can relate to each other, but not normal Humans.
We’re not in an era where men abuse women, it’s an era where women abuse women.
Women who pity themselves for being illtreated by society, still treat other women with disrespect, abuse, backstabbing, gossip, slander, bullying, verbal abuse, scapegoating, identity theft and a lot more.
Women who think only they were suppressed and no one else, have a victim mentality. Women who think they deserve to abuse other women, because they had a better life, because others were never abused . And women who try to rub other’s past wounds to feel better about themselves.
I see more people blinded by jealousy than blinded by love. Now, this is going to trigger a lot of people, so read further only if you are ready to self-reflect.
I don’t feel jealous but being an empath I do feel the energy of jealousy in anyone else on another level. The more haters I struggle with, the more I learn about jealousy.
People think I always had an easy life, they think I always had it easy in my life.. no one tried to understand that behind this brave face there is a fair share of struggles, I have struggled more than anyone knows. It made me strong, that strength makes me look brave and happy, and I do work on healing myself so that pain doesn’t show on my face. It doesn’t mean I was never sad or broken.
This is my message to twin flames, especially Lightworkers and Starseeds.
Internet is full of content where everyone suggests to not contact your twin flame during separation. Why do we expect divine Masculines to figure out all about this journey on their own? We feminines are supposed to guide the way for them. We were designed in a way to lead this journey and they were made to follow the light we show.
Hurting someone’s ego is not a bad thing, not a sin.
Whole life people have tried to abuse me because I challenged their entitled ego. It is really a bad thing to hurt someone’s ego. Or is that about self-respect? Well, entitled ego makes people fake, deceitful, bullies, abusers, manipulators, so I don’t think hurting someone’s ego is a bad thing.
You hurt someone’s ego, i.e. in psychological terms, you cause them an ego injury. So now they think of you as an enemy and want to abuse you to make your life difficult to take revenge. They blame you for hurting them. Wait, what was it that got hurt? ego or self-respect?
Entitled egos are meant to be broken, even everyone’s ego is meant to be broken, at least if you want to grow spiritually and become a self-fulfilled person. Whether you feel inferior or superior, both are coming from a place of ego.
Ego is must to be transcended, it’s a part of awakening. When you shed your false beliefs about yourself, old belief systems, what image society put on you to carry, what opinions and insecurities they put on you, everything needs to be shed, in order to achieve awakening. It’s a painful process, but when you learn to endure pain, you come out stronger. All these things will she like layers of an onion, what will come out at the end, will be your truest, most authentic self, your higher self, your soul.
So next time a Narcissistic toxic person goes “you are hurting me”, throwing toddler tantrums, for causing them an ego injury, for showing them they are not what they think they are. Don’t let their reactions affect you.
We said goodbyes not knowing it would be the last. We said goodbyes and with that goodbye, I remembered all the times we had said goodbyes to each other. I remembered every time we met and separated.
We met like Romeo and Juliet, like star-crossed lovers I still remember the first moment we locked our eyes The first moment we saw each other in this human form We separated with a promise that you will come back But life took me away from you I hated everyday that I had to live without you And then one day I gave up on life to see you again.
We were young children giving each other company when we had no one else to look up to. And we said goodbye. We never met again cause I left this world.
We met again, this time I had to leave you all by yourself to protect you, I had to sacrifice our love to protect you. We said goodbye again. I returned after all those years of pain, but I had already lost you. I sat there with the regret of leaving you, watching the storm come towards me.
We met again this time you had to leave for the wars, we said goodbye again. I waited whole my life for you to come back till my last breath and I left with a hope to see you again.
We met again, both been torn by this world already, both fighting our demons. I tried to be your light and you tried to be mine. But we said goodbye. I look at the moon and I wonder, would we ever be able to stop saying goodbyes. It happened again, we got stuck in the dark, I wonder if its better to say Goodbyes. You did it, you fought the darkness for us And I don’t have doubts anymore. This time I will not only live you till my dying day But I will be with you till my dying day. There’s won’t be any sad Goodbyes anymore.
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I am a twin flame and this is pretty much my entire love story for 5 incarnations. He’s my muse and I can’t stop myself from writing about him
The Pretty Smart Techie 