So I have been posting about how starseeds make soul contracts to be abused or struggle for first half of their life. Because to overcome it, they have to heal themselves and do shadow work. This way they become healers and explore their innate gifts and later they can teach about healing techniques and shadow work to others, second half of thier life.
I have also been posting about how universes uses karma to temper stubborn people who resist change and awakening, to make surrender to healing and inner work and ascension.
But honestly I do not think it was my karma at all, even in past. Otherwise those people won’t be getting any of their karma back right.
I had trauma in my vibration so I attracted assholes to my environment. There was a time when I even felt that I am in a relatively low vibrational place than I should be. This is why I decided to branch off on my own.
Everyone knows how much I have been through but I am finally learning to completely forgive people who did wrong to me. ( Except those who don’t respect women, maybe someday I will learn that too, but not yet).
I walked away from all of you. Some of you are still the same, some of you learnt the lesson and changed, some of you have finally started to self reflect, some of you regret how you hurt me, some of you regret all your past actions and how you kept hurting people, some of you want to restart your life from zero, some of you learnt to work on yourself when you saw me choosing myself over anything.
This photo is from 2016, when I tried to do full makeup for the first time. I went with whatever I had, compact powder, lipstick, BB cream, eyeliner and lipstick as a blush. I did have a small eyeshadow palette from some local brand, used a sheen shade for highlighting. No foundation, no concealer.
My sister helped me with the pictures, she is the best it comes to my photoshoot. When I was going through my drive searching for old photos I realised one thing, fake friends never click good pictures of you, they want to look better than you. (You just got one more fake friend tip, always beware of the Queen-Bees . They want to be the queen of the group, they will often brag that they are so nice, but in reality, those girls are always mean to everyone if you look deeply. )
I was just learning everything about how to blog, learning to handle my WordPress etc, by 2017, I had learnt enough to call myself a beginner. Problems started by the end of 2017 and ended at the end of 2019.
2018 was my worst phase. I mentioned earlier that I was not blogging that year but actually I was, but I deleted most of the work or made it private. I was dealing with Cyberstalking, people used to give me a hard time if I posted anything. Since you can not hide public posts I used to delete a lot of them in a few days after posting. It was such a mind control, I wanted to post, I didn’t want to give up on my passion, but if I did I had to suffer, to be bullied for every topic I right. Every time I would decide not to post again, and then I would decide to not stop posting. I had not started the Instagram page, but I posted in personal profiles on FB and Instagram. Then I used to post on Whatsapp, that’s why I still have this habit of writing long posts in the Instagram story.
Out of fear, I slowly learnt to hide my talent and my voice, but now I have changed. I ended all the drama in 2019. And I fearlessly posted everything that I wanted to say on my Facebook page. I knew they would be stalking and I wanted them to read and self-reflect that how low they have become.
Now I choose my battles wisely.
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