Since the time I have started posting about limited belief systems, relationships, defending, true empowerment, attachments. I feel a lot of negative energies coming my way. Even more people & relationships are shedding out of my life. I was trying to understand why it is happening again after I had already cut toxic people off. The answer is –
“I am not only stepping into being an empowered human, but also an empowered lightworker. Some people are going to be incredibly threatened to see me in my power, also because they have seen me being the ordinary person that I was.”
This message came a few days back from my spirit guides. I have to keep walking my path that is true to my soul and to not give in to the distractions. I am finding my own truth and moving away from mass consciousness. People who are still stuck in the same mass consciousness and thought forms, aren’t going to easily accept it.
Starseeds come here so that being an outsider, having experienced high vibrational dimensions. They can see what is wrong here on Earth, with the systems. Since everyone here is stuck in that mass consciousness, they never question it. Earthbound people find it completely normal, so there was a need for someone to come here from outside and show the light. This place needs an awakening, but there’s no one to initiate it, everyone finds it normal to be unawakened. And so it needed outsiders, the spirit could not initiate the awakening from outside, so starseeds had to come here live between us and show the light.
Starseeds do not align with current mass consciousness because they came here to transform it, into a higher consciousness.
So everyone knows I know many Narcissists from my past and with time I have been able to observe them.
They are lazy.. they are damn lazy.
They would tell me not to learn a new thing or try my hands on it, coz I am already doing a lot of things. They even call me fickle minded. Someone first please tell me in which scripture it is mentioned to only have one talent, not more. Why do people go like oh, you are already doing too many things, why would you do one more. It’s simple, I want to do it. My brain wants to expand.
Then after trying to tell you not to do something or putting obstacles, they go do the same thing. Well, what is it now? You trying to steal my ideas?廊
So this is a repeated story with all the Narcs. Some moved to writing, others to blogging, healthy food blogging, motivational speaker, craft, art, Youtubing, makeup artists. So in three years, I had gained a lot of competitors around me. Not like I compete with anyone, but they wanna compete with me.
But I don’t bother much. Why? Because they always give up, they freaking give up. They can’t keep doing the same thing with determination for long. Narc or toxic, they start doing it out of jealousy. They get some admiration, some likes, some ego boost and they think they did it better. So alright, time to chill. And then after some time they get jealous of something else, someone else. They pick up another hobby & the story continues.
On serious note, if you ever deal with a Narc boss. You only have to do one thing. Stick to your plan, work hard, achieve your goals and show them that you don’t give up. Coz, today they may look like having control over you, playing with your self-esteem. But after sometime, they will anyways get bored, but you won’t. You will still keep putting the hard work. They can only do manipulation tactics to distract you, but you can achieve whatever you want. Coz all Empaths have a growth mindset, they are intelligent and they don’t give up.
I learnt something new about friendship Today. Read the pictures and then read the below.
And if you are thinking I create content from everything that happens in my life. You are damn right.
I go through shit and share that with the world, so that everyone who reads won’t have to go through the same shit that I went through, because now they have wisdom that comes from learning my life lessons.
Once a friend tried to say that I create content on everything. I think they were jealous actually, of my creativity. I was with a shitty person, who supported me when I got an accidental injury. So all I did was trying to create a YouTube video, on how support helps someone mentally when they are not well. Now I was in pain because of the injury, overall that person also abused me overtime. But this friend should not have a problem with me creating real content. Because whatever shit I am going through, I am still making something that will motivate people and send out a healing message.
I felt guilty and never posted the video. I felt guilty that I should not write about people in my life, but now I don’t think so. I maintain their privacy, but whatever is my part of the story, it’s mine & I own it. And no one can snatch it away from me. Some people used to think that I write about them, now with time they know it’s all about me, my story, my lessons and healing others. Now I am not scared of being me.
So really people should not have a problem with how you create your content if it’s spreading out the right message. The people who stick with me through everything, they never mind if I am sharing something that I learnt from them. They are happy to contribute & be a part of something that heals others also.
Is it a twin flame relationship or a karmic account? Let me explain how to find out.
People have created such a stigma around twin flame relationships. That sometimes when you are in a toxic relationship, you think that is also a twin flame. But sometimes it can be karmic which makes them your false twin flame.
Specially Empaths and codependents, if they fall in love with a Narcissist they tend to think it’s a soulmate or a twin flame. It happens because you don’t want to accept that what’s happening to you is abuse, because of love-bombing, cognitive dissonance, trauma bonding and parent child dynamic.
With time you will realise that it’s a Narcissist, because relationship with a Narc can not last a very long time, without the truth coming to the surface. Whereas twin flame relationships go into separation so both the people can heal and come back into a healthy relationship.
**If you are an empath, spiritual person or understand energies, it’s easy to figure out. When you say that you are made of each other and your soul feels it. What does it actually feel? I used to feel as if we are chained together. I am growing but I have to pull the other person with me, even if I have to slow down. The chain is nothing like an angelic chain or golden chain, it’s a heavy rusty iron chain. That’s a karmic relationship, where you haven’t learnt the lessons yet, which is keeping you stuck with them.
**Whereas if you think about your twin flame, you won’t feel any links like cords or chains. You just see that person as simply you. You know you both are the same soul. You don’t feel any cord but you know that there is a connection at every level. Even when you go through separation and triggering, you will still find there loving energy healing you in 5D.
Your twin flame is the one with whom you have been before also, in other lives/higher dimensions, so it feels like home. Usually, when you discuss about your life, you find out that theirs and your life have almost been through same templates.
Now, this is the part which creates confusion, do you understand them better since you know how tough your past was. Or are you with them because you think that, since you were both abused in the same way in past/childhood, so now you are a match. This is your wound-mate, not a soulmate.
Some people think I became an artist because of them, that they led me to art. If they had or had not come into my life, I would still be an artist. What they don’t know I was an artist 2 lives back also. I only had to master this skill again, coz my souls remembers.
I came in touch with art from early childhood, I loved drawing, I love watching kids art hour shows on TV. My mom used to give us sketching assignments, I used to take craft competitions in my school so seriously. My Nani put me to embroidery. I chose to learn to make soft toys, emboss paintings and Mehandi on my own. I was introduced to painting with my Maasi’s high-grade watercolours.
And we choose our families, we choose our parents. Our soul chooses it so that we can learn our lessons. I learnt the art from my maternal family and honesty from my Dad. Not like I didn’t have these innately, but to see them as values, until my awakening.
This is why always be thoughtful when you resent your parents for something. Even people who are born into dysfunctional families, it happened for a reason.
Most of the Lightworkers are born in families who have a history of ancestral trauma, they choose difficult situations because that’s where light is needed the most. Every lightworker breaks the pattern of dysfunction in their family line. It all ends with them. Their good karma is not only good for themselves but also for future generations. This is what we mean when we say all lightworkers are placed strategically in the grid. And it’s not only about the family line, but it can also be religion, poverty, a low vibrational place, a tradition, a war etc.
People who bullied me tried to use spiritual bypassing against me, saying it’s my past life karma that I am being abused now. But, I remember now, my past life karma brings people who support me. I helped people in my past lives too and I know very few of them now also, with time I might remember more.
So be careful what you think about light-bringers.
Yesterday when I was doing cord-cutting, I decided to it for more people.
Sometimes what people do to you, is not forgivable, there’s no spiritual bypassing for that. Suppose someone does a crime, how can you justify, that it had a purpose? So those kind of things are only to forget and let go, some things are so shitty that it can’t be healed, it does not come in the criteria of healing. So that kind of things you just need to let go, you should not try to pick your wounds again and again by trying to heal it, when there is nothing to heal.
So I tried to do the same, one single person who I could not forgive but just let go. Cutting cords was getting painful and there were too many cords.
I have mastered meditation now, so with the cord-cutting meditation, I had called in on all my spirit guides and mother Gaia as well. I did a combination of white light meditation as well as grounding meditation. So mother Gaia was present. I did set an intention to not include her in cord-cutting, but they always care for us.
When I was feeling hurt because of the cord-cutting, mother Gaia held me in her arms and calmed me down and gave me strength. I could finally complete the cord-cutting. I kept thanking her and archangel Michael the whole day.
Mother Gaia’s energy is so loving, motherly and comforting to your soul. Monther is nothing but mother mature, all Empaths are in touch with her. This interaction with her made me realise I am an Earth angle too. All divine energies keep showing themselves to me one by one to make me believe in them, myself and my life. I had started getting some messages related to Gaia through tarot for last few days. It is also related to the Lionsgate portal, this time brings such angelic experiences for starseeds specially Sirians. I had started getting some messages related to Gaia through tarot for last few days.
When humanity becomes so unconscious that angelic/pure souls have to come here to help them. They even try to take out their own pain on pure souls. The ones who came here to help, are abused here. I mean all of us Lightworkers could have stayed there in a place, where all souls are awake, joyful and happy. Free thinkers are made to suffer here, because they are not as limited as others, so they try to limit us.
Everyone who comes to me attracted by the light, the lightworker energy, they try to project their wounds on me. I watch and say nothing, because I somewhere feel bad for them, someone who is not even at the first stage of healing, of accepting what their wounds are. I can’t tell them that it’s not my wound, I am in my complete power and the wound is their own. I stay silent because I know more, more than they think I know. And they still think I am the crazy one.
Sometimes I question, did I really have to come here to help, those who do not even try to be deserving to get that help. And then I again only feel bad for them, that this is the lowest level they could be at and so I make a choice to stay here and keep helping. People don’t know one thing that starseeds can break the contract with the universe any time of coming here and go back to where they belong. They only stay here to absorb the pain & darkness present here and transmute it into the light.
When someone tries to make me cry, to take their own stuff out on me. I say nothing. I watch, I watch. I watch everything happen and my heart cries to see them in pain everytime but I say nothing. I watch, I watch.
P.S. My third eye chakra has been activated for quite sometime, and now my Clair-cognizance is coming into fruition ( psychic knowing). It’s tough to see all the pain, I always did see it, now it’s more clear.
I keep mentioning about cord cutting, so I thought of explaining how it works.
You can meditate on your own or choose a guided meditation. Guided meditations are mostly about cutting the cord, but some people suggest to do a cord removal and not to just cut it. So I usually take guided meditations and add my own steps in it.
What’s a chord? Whoever you interact with, leaves energy in your body, to be specific your chakras. There are 7 chakras, each symbolises a different energy. So suppose if someone hurt you, that created an energy imbalance in your heart chakram so every emotional trauma is ultimately stored in your body. If someone oppressed you, that’s in throat chakra. If someone tried to manipulate reality and told what your intuition says is not true, it goes into third eye chakra. Gaslighting affects base chakra. If someone doubted your potential, that goes into sacral chakra. And many more, mostly in the lower 6th chakra, 7th chakra is connected to your soul’s higher self, it’s not about other people.
So when you do energy clearing with a particular person, you are trying to remove attachment traumas, wounds or negative energies related to them. For every person you will find that different chakras have been affected. You can feel a tingly feeling or pain in that chakra. Those chakras are having chords to this person, you have to heal it. I usually had 2-3 chakra related to each person.
You imagine yourself surrounded with white healing light asking archangel Michael to do cord cutting ( he is the only angel with a sword, angel of protection). If you want to actually do cord removal, also practice saying ” I forgive you, I love you, please forgive me, I want to end this karmic energy here” or something familiar. Now when you imagine a cord being cut, after that imagine that hole/void & both people being healed with white light.
So cutting cords is only about cutting negative energies with that person, positive energy still remains. Now your relationship with this person could either improve or they would leave. Sometimes Narcissists from your past can sense it, so they come back, but you have to not respond to them one more time. After the cord cutting, you can still have thoughts about that person for few days, but this time it will be resolving your issues and transforming into wisdom.
At a point, I had to cut cords with a lot of people. I have been able to cut cords with more than 10 people in one go ( I remember because I write down all my experiences from meditations. That’s a lot but I am not going to dim my light anymore). Stop, when you start feeling tired. Also, don’t try cord cutting with a twin flame, there are no cords, you are same soul and it’s not going to work and it will hurt more.
Sometimes you will find that there is still some energy left for a person, so do the meditation again. The meditation itself, will reveal more chords to you, with the name of the person it is related to. Sometimes those people won’t even be on your list of toxic relationships. Some people that you have already walked away from, their cords would just be waiting for you to release it.
The reason you find unexpected chords during meditation is because we tend to forget and not realise who manipulated us, but our energy remembers. So your soul will try to reveal it in meditations. You will not find a single negative chord for healthy relationships in your life.
Able to see the silver linings now. Believe in God!!!
First time I was abused, I thought it’s my fault. The second time I was abused I was confused. The third time I was abused I knew I am different.
By the third time, my psychic abilities started growing because spirit/God wanted to protect me. I learnt enough psychology too, to understand that it’s not my mistake. They are predators. I was told I am good at nothing, but I knew there must be something special about me.
I was told it’s my fault that I get abused every time, I knew it’s for a bigger reason. I have been trained to lead, to make the right choice and stand for it, in such hostile environments, that I can face anything now. It made me a warrior.
I learnt to never let anyone tell me who I am, coz I know who I am. I want to help people who suffer the same things that I did.
This time I don’t mind if someone copies me. Alone I could make only a few 10 warriors, but together we can make 100’s of them. Those who will not let anyone abuse their power, those who will stand for the right thing. Those who will be the change to create a new world.
I am not scared to say such big words because my vision is this big and it’s not going to change.
God is there and I believe in it. I have faith that nothing or no one can break. It made me who I am so that I can do what I am meant to do. They tried to ruin my career, now they will see a new career is born out of that.
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So I just took a personality test and came to know I am an INFJ-A. I started talking about that on my Instagram and ended up talking about my shadow work. I just want to share all of that into a single post on WordPress.
My personality basically is a super empath, according to me. Super Empaths are in touch with their emotions but strong individuals. Always learning, often spiritual, looked up as old souls. They learn to fight the darkness within themselves, accept all parts of themselves and have true self-love.
But you should never mess with an Empath, since they master their light and dark both sides, they can very well understand what a toxic person is capable of doing and INFJs can fight back ten-fold if they want, but they choose not to. They do stand up to abusers because bringing justice is as spiritual as you can be. They win but outgrowing their abusers. When one masters darkness within themselves, they become a Lightworker.
Now I thought people who haven’t done any shadow work for themselves, would be looking at it in a negative way. So I went down explaining more and more. To me, it’s not righteous to compare your light side to someone’s shadow side and be like oh this is a bad person. I don’t think a person who has done shadow work on themselves, is ever going to compare it with someone else’s shadow and be like “mine is better”. Shadow work always humbles you, because now you know what bad could exist within you, why would you look down on anyone else.
Empaths have a weakness to think as if the world is as good as them. They are pure-hearted and have strong moral values. Their dark side is all about having boundaries, walking away from wrong people, detaching from their abusers, standing up for themselves, seeing through people’s intentions and taking their power back. All these things are suppressed in an empath, especially rebels, Lightworkers, INFJs. They are taught by society to suppress their strong personalities.
Because of abuse, boundary violations and gaslighting, all of these start coming to surface. Suddenly they also want to fight back, need justice, the dark emotions of wanting to fight for themselves start coming to the surface. (The emotion is dark only from the victim’s perspective because of their conditioning, it’s not actually dark. Courage is a good thing.) This is when the shadow work kicks in. In some rare cases, it pushes them to a state termed “Supernova”, and that’s when they can play one step ahead of the Narcissists. But the core of an empath is purity, so very fast, their soul starts suffering the consequences. You cannot change who you are on the inside, so then they need to go for therapy, to recover from the guilt/regret/remorse. If an empath learns to fight their urges of battling the abuser, to see it as lessons, work on themselves, stop getting involved in the drama, taking their power back and outgrow their environments to overcome abuse. That’s how an empath becomes a super empath.
The Empath’s dark side is not about doing bad to anyone, but to accept that world is not all good. (Now again, I know my haters would be going like, see Empaths aren’t as pure). Before anyone blames Empaths for anything, remember that they absorb other people’s emotions, the Narcissist’s emotions too. Narcissists abuse their victims in a way, to provoke the victims to step outside of their integrity. That’s why those who overcome Narcissistic abuse, are strong people, spiritual warriors. A super empath is an empowered individual. Those who are still not able to justify, I would ask them to do their own shadow work, before raising a finger.
The shadow is about what parts of yourself you have rejected when you were told by someone else, your environment and your society that it’s not good to be different, to be strong or opinionated. It’s just about your rejected characteristics, that you decided to keep in a box inside you and to never use them. And possibly, all characteristics out of those were not as bad as someone told you just to keep you suppressed and in control. When you integrate your shadow-self back within you, after that there’s no shadow anymore, it all becomes you. You can love all parts of yourself and not be afraid of society’s approval. You just need to accept yourself, let everyone else do there bid. You love yourself completely regardless.
Empath’s shadow self has power as well as dark emotions, that’s why you think that it’s something bad. But their shadow side still has lesser dark emotions. Unlike other people (mostly in toxic people and Narcissists) who have have Empathy itself in their shadow side, which makes it worse.
It’s easier to think that the Empath, a victim of abuse is a bad person, by looking at their shadow. To me, the shadow side is about negative internal emotions, abuse puts you through that turmoil, but it doesn’t mean they take action based on those negative emotions externally. This is why this world needs more Empathy. Empathy is not the same as sympathy, it makes you able to put yourself in someone else’s shoes. That is the same reason why Empaths can’t do bad to anyone or hurt anyone, even after integrating their shadow side. Because no matter what their shadow says, Empathy is still the highest emotion of them all.
Without exploring your own dark side, you can not see the dark side of others’. Empaths tend to think everyone is an angel until they get in touch with their own dark side. The shadow work is also related to “the dark night of the soul” phase when going through a spiritual awakening.
I wanted to share an example, that shadow is not all bad. So I shared something about myself. I didn’t have the emotion of jealousy ( competition jealousy for which people try to put someone down for their own good), even in my shadow side. That’s why it was so traumatizing for me to see people getting jealous, back in 2018. It took me a lot to accept that – yes, people do get jealous and you can’t do much about it. This is why, exploring your own shadow side is important, because, without it, I was able to see some things, but not able to accept them.
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