So I have been posting about how starseeds make soul contracts to be abused or struggle for first half of their life. Because to overcome it, they have to heal themselves and do shadow work. This way they become healers and explore their innate gifts and later they can teach about healing techniques and shadow work to others, second half of thier life.
I have also been posting about how universes uses karma to temper stubborn people who resist change and awakening, to make surrender to healing and inner work and ascension.
But honestly I do not think it was my karma at all, even in past. Otherwise those people won’t be getting any of their karma back right.
I had trauma in my vibration so I attracted assholes to my environment. There was a time when I even felt that I am in a relatively low vibrational place than I should be. This is why I decided to branch off on my own.
Everyone knows how much I have been through but I am finally learning to completely forgive people who did wrong to me. ( Except those who don’t respect women, maybe someday I will learn that too, but not yet).
I walked away from all of you. Some of you are still the same, some of you learnt the lesson and changed, some of you have finally started to self reflect, some of you regret how you hurt me, some of you regret all your past actions and how you kept hurting people, some of you want to restart your life from zero, some of you learnt to work on yourself when you saw me choosing myself over anything.
When you have more uninvited hidden followers than official followers. They are haters but also the first fans.
I even have proof about this.
Who noticed first when I wanted to start YouTube channel? Haters. Who noticed first when I came out of depression? Haters. Who noticed first my skills in painting? Haters. Who noticed first when I was changing my career? Haters. Who were my first customers when I started my own business? Haters.
Always be grateful for whatever comes your way, no one will teach you more lessons than a hater.
P.S. This is something I had written long back but always hesitated to post it on the blog. I learnt this concept from one female YouTuber. But I don’t remember her name now.
I have been learning this lesson in last few days and this describes it perfectly.
My spirit guides have been sending me messages through tarot this week and it has been healing me so much. ❤️
Your vibrational match is people who respect you, who love you for who you are, who know your your worth, who provide the unconditional love that you provide to yourself, not only what you provide to them. Also who provide a room for you to grow and grow with you, spiritually, personally, etc. at all levels.
If that makes you feel like I am looking for soulmates, you are right and yes, this is exactly what I get from my friends and family, they should be my soulmates.
People have been judging me for a few weeks now and I learnt to not give a shit about it, AGAIN.
People who think defending yourself is bad, people who think being in your power is bad, people who think knowing your worth is bad. What you hate about others, says a lot about you.
When you hate someone for speaking their own truth, or maybe sometimes for showing you your truth, it shows how much you try to hide your own truth and to run away from it.
People who you think can become your friends, start falling out after sometime. You thought they could be your friend, but they can’t. That’s why I like to take few months before I get to see the real them, people manage to hide their real self in starting.
Also, people who think I am closed off because I am not open to new people. I am fulfilled with my connections, family and friendships at this time.
People get attached to Lightworkers, because they want to have a happy healthy caring person in their life, it’s like lightworkers attract people like moths to a flame, because people want to feed off of our energy. If I have space for only 4-5 friends in my life, but some 50 people want me in their life. And I start making room to take everyone in, where I don’t even need them, only they need me, that would be a great mess for everyone.
This is what all lightworkers need to know, people not only want to have you in their life, but they hold onto you for dear life, and that can be very suffocating for someone who practices unconditional love. Learn to say no when you just don’t want something, it’s not always necessary to give a reason.
I learnt something new about friendship Today. Read the pictures and then read the below.
And if you are thinking I create content from everything that happens in my life. You are damn right.
I go through shit and share that with the world, so that everyone who reads won’t have to go through the same shit that I went through, because now they have wisdom that comes from learning my life lessons.
Once a friend tried to say that I create content on everything. I think they were jealous actually, of my creativity. I was with a shitty person, who supported me when I got an accidental injury. So all I did was trying to create a YouTube video, on how support helps someone mentally when they are not well. Now I was in pain because of the injury, overall that person also abused me overtime. But this friend should not have a problem with me creating real content. Because whatever shit I am going through, I am still making something that will motivate people and send out a healing message.
I felt guilty and never posted the video. I felt guilty that I should not write about people in my life, but now I don’t think so. I maintain their privacy, but whatever is my part of the story, it’s mine & I own it. And no one can snatch it away from me. Some people used to think that I write about them, now with time they know it’s all about me, my story, my lessons and healing others. Now I am not scared of being me.
So really people should not have a problem with how you create your content if it’s spreading out the right message. The people who stick with me through everything, they never mind if I am sharing something that I learnt from them. They are happy to contribute & be a part of something that heals others also.
This one just hit me. It took me a long time to learn that I am sensitive to energies. When I accepted this, it led me to accept that I am an Empath.
I was just writing my diary and feeling exhausted after interacting with other people. Whenever this happens I observe myself if it’s because of other’s energies. I thought of sharing this on my blog because it takes a lot of time (years) to learn how your body responds to energies.
If you are interacting with someone, you are in harmony with, it’s not going to make much difference, but only make you happier. This is why everyone prefers to have positive people in their life.
Next comes when you interact with lower energy/vibration people, it drains your energy too. So for a few hours even after the interaction, I can feel dull, it also gives me slight pain in my lower back, which is not my bones, but a feeling of a muscle tear. That is what happens when you absorb others’ lower energies.
Next level is a psychic attack/energy attack. Don’t take this as some voodoo stuff, it’s very common for empaths. Suppose if you are in a troubling relationship with a toxic person, going through a rough phase, most of the time both people are thinking about each other, so this creates an energetic cord if some negative energy is coming highly directed towards you. You are going to feel it. It feels like a pain in the back area, sometimes up to the neck.
For clearing your energy, you can reduce interactions with negative people, meditate, relaxing music, have healthy foods to keep you in good energy. You can also take relaxing hot water baths, use sage smudging sticks, go outside and have a walk. Walk barefoot on the grass and ground yourself. One simple way is to say, “it’s you energy, not mine”, to detach. Do a 5-minute mediation in the morning to protect yourself with a bubble of white light.
This is why it gets exhausting for empaths to work in toxic environments. If it’s regular, it starts affecting their eating & sleeping habits. Productivity, mental, emotional and physical health.
You think people are hurt and don’t know what they are doing.. They do know it somewhere deep inside, but they choose not to take responsibility for what they do. Just to hide from guilt, regret, shame or being responsible for something.
We take adjustment in relationships to next level, when we think they are not able to realise something. But actually we need to let them realise and do their inner work. You can not save somebody from this pain, by sacrificing on your side. The same pain leads them to grow into a better person.
There is always a limit on what can be forgiven and what can be adjusted. Hurt people, hurt people. It works when you want to forgive someone, but does not if you keep letting someone cross your boundaries.
Any sort of relationship works well only when both sides meet each other half way.
One of my oldest writes. Triggered quite a lot of people that time, though I didn’t realise then that they are fake.
How to recognise toxic friends? That friend who puts a status when you share your failure with them and gets competitive at your success. Who always talk about your not-so-good moments to others and rarely your qualities. People who always find something to blame you for or always make you feel invalidated. Who are probably never there for you, but you are always, no reciprocity. Friends who get jealous, compare your life with theirs, criticize you, discourage you when you talk about your dreams. Definitely wrong types of friends.
I filtered people in my life for quite a good amount of time, say 2 years and I know how healthy friendship feels like. Unhealthy friendship is one of those things that you don’t realise until you experience something better.
Why is it important to cut toxic people out of life? You become like the 5 closest people in your life, so you need to stay away from misery. If you are investing your time in the wrong people, you will have less time for the right people. The right people are those who will always work on themselves & all the issues, to meet you halfway in any kind of relationship. Friendship is an important one, because this is the only relation we get to choose completely by ourselves.
It takes a lot of courage to cut contacts with people, but once you are through the process, you will feel more loved, excited about life & end up thanking yourself for doing it, loving yourself more.
I literally started with feeling guilty of giving up on people, but now I am proud of my decisions. But what if I didn’t give up on them? What if I gave up on myself?? . So give yourself permission to become your truest authentic self. Your journey starts with choosing people who align with it.
Misery loves company and so do toxic people love each other’s company.
All my Narcissists always came with groups, I thought I should try to explain to the manipulated people about what’s happening. But the truth is always known already. There is always only a mear numbers of people who are manipulated, others stay in the dynamic by choice. Why, they enjoy other’s misery anyway. This is why there is never a need to explain yourself, the right people will stick to you anyway.
Always stay away from toxic people, because all they gonna do it try make you also miserable, so that they can someone like them. People who don’t give you anything in terms of love, care, time and attention. But only take, take and take, are not right for you. They will always let you down in long term. Some will be with you because they envy you, some because of your status & money, some to steal your shine, some to smother you, some to make you feel bad about yourself.
If you surround yourself with people who are all miserable, you will become like them one day. These are the people who try to bring you down when you start o grow. Always choose right people for yourself. It’s better to be alone than being with wrong influence. You become like the top 5 people who you spend your most time with.
Thank you for reading it till the end. If you have any queries, let me know in the comment section.