Beauty is present everywhere, stars, nature, flowers, plants, leaves, colours, art, architecture, decor, outfits and faces. Beauty is a very human experience that’s been with us for millions of years. Watching beautiful things gives us a delightful feeling and that makes us happy.
Beauty is healing.
But for some reason, people expect beautiful people to hide their beauty. Only out of their own insecurities and self-limiting beliefs.
After I filed papers in the first company, I was doing better everyday, but I had the stress about finding a job again. When I took a month’s break, I was doing better. When I joined the next job, I was excited to finally start the working again. But that year I lost a lot of friendships, it was some 25-30 friends that I cut off. And if you include normal friends, work colleagues and old work colleagues, the count had was 60.
First month in that job was fine. I had also learnt to manage energetic boundaries with toxic people. Whatever happened in 2018, gave me clarity that I’m an empath and I need to learn how to set boundaries. But soon they started bullying me. And then I started feeling the depression again. It was a different issue but everything reminded me of the past, that I was trying to get away from. Everyday I used to ask myself why are these people jealous of me? I have nothing left, my love is gone, then the humiliation that I faced with harassment. Everyday coming back from office, all I could think about was the last year. I had so much anxiety that I was hiding. All the time I would keep shrinking inside and no one would even get a clue. I had slowly started hating the city. Big cities and selfish people. Generally, people block their heart chakra after heartbreak in romantic relationships, but mine got blocked because of the harassment.
So everyone knows I know many Narcissists from my past and with time I have been able to observe them.
They are lazy.. they are damn lazy.
They would tell me not to learn a new thing or try my hands on it, coz I am already doing a lot of things. They even call me fickle minded. Someone first please tell me in which scripture it is mentioned to only have one talent, not more. Why do people go like oh, you are already doing too many things, why would you do one more. It’s simple, I want to do it. My brain wants to expand.
Then after trying to tell you not to do something or putting obstacles, they go do the same thing. Well, what is it now? You trying to steal my ideas?廊
So this is a repeated story with all the Narcs. Some moved to writing, others to blogging, healthy food blogging, motivational speaker, craft, art, Youtubing, makeup artists. So in three years, I had gained a lot of competitors around me. Not like I compete with anyone, but they wanna compete with me.
But I don’t bother much. Why? Because they always give up, they freaking give up. They can’t keep doing the same thing with determination for long. Narc or toxic, they start doing it out of jealousy. They get some admiration, some likes, some ego boost and they think they did it better. So alright, time to chill. And then after some time they get jealous of something else, someone else. They pick up another hobby & the story continues.
On serious note, if you ever deal with a Narc boss. You only have to do one thing. Stick to your plan, work hard, achieve your goals and show them that you don’t give up. Coz, today they may look like having control over you, playing with your self-esteem. But after sometime, they will anyways get bored, but you won’t. You will still keep putting the hard work. They can only do manipulation tactics to distract you, but you can achieve whatever you want. Coz all Empaths have a growth mindset, they are intelligent and they don’t give up.