People have been judging me for a few weeks now and I learnt to not give a shit about it, AGAIN.
People who think defending yourself is bad, people who think being in your power is bad, people who think knowing your worth is bad. What you hate about others, says a lot about you.
When you hate someone for speaking their own truth, or maybe sometimes for showing you your truth, it shows how much you try to hide your own truth and to run away from it.
People who you think can become your friends, start falling out after sometime. You thought they could be your friend, but they can’t. That’s why I like to take few months before I get to see the real them, people manage to hide their real self in starting.
Also, people who think I am closed off because I am not open to new people. I am fulfilled with my connections, family and friendships at this time.
People get attached to Lightworkers, because they want to have a happy healthy caring person in their life, it’s like lightworkers attract people like moths to a flame, because people want to feed off of our energy. If I have space for only 4-5 friends in my life, but some 50 people want me in their life. And I start making room to take everyone in, where I don’t even need them, only they need me, that would be a great mess for everyone.
This is what all lightworkers need to know, people not only want to have you in their life, but they hold onto you for dear life, and that can be very suffocating for someone who practices unconditional love. Learn to say no when you just don’t want something, it’s not always necessary to give a reason.
Every soul is innately free-spirited and limitless.
It’s our belief systems that keep us limited. We think Karma is caused by our bad actions done towards someone else. But mostly it is caused by our own belief systems. We hold on to our limiting beliefs and they keep us trapped.
All you need to do is shed those limiting beliefs and grow, you will feel free.
When I was going through my Spiritual awakening, the decision to move away from toxic people, leaving the 9 to 5, telling my friends and family about my Spiritual awakening, talking about my past on my blog, talking about my Psychic abilities. Everything was as scary as it could be, because I didn’t personally know anyone else who had gone through the same things. No one in my family line had ever used tarot even. Everytime opening up made me face the fear of what will it bring. Will it push people away or will they be able to accept it?
It was just my limited belief that something tragic would happen, everything will crumble. But it didn’t, I showed my new-self over & over, and they loved it. Remember, people who won’t like your growth, are the ones who probably should not be in your life. But at the same time, it made me count, how many people have a probability to fall away and how many will stay. And what if I end up alone. That’s the fear. What if I don’t open up, would I have to pretend to be someone that I’m not, for whole my life.
I followed my heart and did it anyway and I am happy with the outcomes. I did take sometime to first porcess everything by myself and then share. Because it was my responsibility to communicate it in the right way, when you are comfortable inside, you are comfortable outside too. Me being authentic, brought so much transparency in our relationships and we are happy. I even chose to stick to some people that I had a rough relationship with, but we healed it. With me transcending my ego, transcended all my relationships into unconditional love.
Most of the time, it’s just what we fear that keeps us trapped, not people. When you choose to show your authentic self to the world, the universe chooses to shower you with love 10 times more, it always brings healing. When you surrender, give something selflessly, the universe rewards it 10 times back.
The universe/God does not test your commitment to itself, but towards your own soul. So how willing are you to free your soul?
When humanity becomes so unconscious that angelic/pure souls have to come here to help them. They even try to take out their own pain on pure souls. The ones who came here to help, are abused here. I mean all of us Lightworkers could have stayed there in a place, where all souls are awake, joyful and happy. Free thinkers are made to suffer here, because they are not as limited as others, so they try to limit us.
Everyone who comes to me attracted by the light, the lightworker energy, they try to project their wounds on me. I watch and say nothing, because I somewhere feel bad for them, someone who is not even at the first stage of healing, of accepting what their wounds are. I can’t tell them that it’s not my wound, I am in my complete power and the wound is their own. I stay silent because I know more, more than they think I know. And they still think I am the crazy one.
Sometimes I question, did I really have to come here to help, those who do not even try to be deserving to get that help. And then I again only feel bad for them, that this is the lowest level they could be at and so I make a choice to stay here and keep helping. People don’t know one thing that starseeds can break the contract with the universe any time of coming here and go back to where they belong. They only stay here to absorb the pain & darkness present here and transmute it into the light.
When someone tries to make me cry, to take their own stuff out on me. I say nothing. I watch, I watch. I watch everything happen and my heart cries to see them in pain everytime but I say nothing. I watch, I watch.
P.S. My third eye chakra has been activated for quite sometime, and now my Clair-cognizance is coming into fruition ( psychic knowing). It’s tough to see all the pain, I always did see it, now it’s more clear.
Just my science graduate ass trying to explain spirituality 😅 I made a Venn diagram, I have not done any research but I read a lot online.
15-20% of the population is highly sensitive people and not every highly sensitive person is emotionally and energy sensitive. 10-12% of the entire population is Empaths.
There are some 1,44,000 prophesied original Lightworkers, which makes approx 2% of the world’s current population. Some people believe that 1,44,000 is not a number of Lightworkers but a frequency that they vibrate in. And again not every Empath is a Lightworker.
I did not want to leave people who are not Starseeds but have a life purpose of helping people. So with a little flexibility, I drew two circles, for Lightworkers and Starseeds.
I hope this saves my techies from a lot of confusion.
P.S. Just an attempt to explain the theory, this is not a verified data.
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First things first. They are not ghosts. They are people, old souls, who have chosen to take a break from incarnating in a body. They live in a dimension where they are supposed to live.
In soul form they are very authentic, so sometimes in their messages, they can sound very sassy. They don’t like to spoon-feed you, they wait for you to learn lessons on your own, give you slight hints whenever they feel required. They guide you when you are going through big transformational changes in life, and there is probably no-one who can help you understand what’s going on with you. That’s when they want to jump in and help.
Starseeds have a difficult time here, trying to understand humans, trying to accommodate a higher dimension soul into a rigid human body is difficult, so that’s why they guide the way.
When starseeds are given the job to come here, some spirit guides also join as a team. Starseeds are souls who come from a higher dimension(5D) to help humanity on this planet (3D). They are original Lightworkers.
Everyone has spirit guides, they can be your ancestors, deceased loved ones/pets, soulmates, twin-flame, archangels, angels, goddess energies, earth elementals, fairies or even spirit animals. The thing is how open you are to connect with them. When you raise your consciousness, have faith in faith, surrender to surrender. That’s when you are able to connect with them.
Some spirit guides are with you for whole life, some temporary.
Around my spiritual awakening, I started getting interest in Tarot readings, they wanted to help me and guide me through the heavy and fast changes I was going through. It just started showing up on my YouTube timeline and every reading helped me understand what’s going on with me. I thought it’s the tarot reader who is helping, but actually, my spirit guides tried to send me messages through tarot.
In the last 2 months, I have been able to meditate a lot & healed myself. I have developed a bond with them finally the communication is becoming clearer. I have learnt to understand how psychic abilities work for me.
It’s a vast topic, but I tried to explain it in brief. I offer tarot readings, where my spirit guides help me. I use my psychic abilities to give you advice on what to do about your current situation. You can buy tarot readings from me in my Etsy shop or you can DM me on Instagram. I will link it here down below.
I know it’s going to be hard if you just started your self-love journey. It was, for me too.
Let’s start from the point where I had to start, I had completely rejected and forgotten all parts of me, all my past that I did not like. And then I had to finally face everything.
I haven’t been posting anything about my relationships here, because you know, Indians !! But I can share what is required badly now. Anyways most of the people who know me, they know all of this stuff.
I was in a relationship with a guy, quite toxic. When the relationship started to fall off, in just a few months, I tried to fix everything. He just tried to block me everywhere and I kept trying to fix his life for him. I went on telling him to work on his self-esteem, his friendships, his conflict-avoidant nature. I ended up with no results because you can not change a person unless they want to, this has been a lesson that life kept throwing at me repeatedly for three years, even in friendships and at work, until I started using it into my life.
Whatever I tried to fix for him, in a few months I started observing the same problems in my life. First my own self-esteem, my own habit of people-pleasing, next to my toxic friendships, my boundaries, my priorities and then all patterns that I acquired while growing up.
I was just thrown off into deep shadow work, just like that. My life was falling apart and with that, all my wounds were coming to surface. I started writing all my emotions into a diary, I kept writing each fear of mine into that list. I also wrote each memory from my past that haunted me. Meanwhile, new people, new abusers, new problems, kept coming into my life at the same time. It was very difficult, but I just made it through somehow, all I knew was to not give up.
When I was over the phase of writing everything down, as much as I could m I started working on it one by one. I still have flashbacks of things that I rejected about myself, but now it’s easy because I have practised enough. Every time I remember a bitter memory, I know what wound it caused and what behaviours I learnt, what shame it put me into.
A lot of motivational speakers show self-love as if it’s going to be all good. But it’s a difficult process to learn, it’s not all easy, with self-reflection, you are entering into the journey of facing your Shadows, all the shame that anyone has ever caused in life and made you feel less worthy, it’s all going to come to the surface.
Healing is a journey, there is never going to be an end to it, but after a point, you will reach saturation, and that point is our goal.
Self-acceptance is so important, it means self-reflection, self-love, shadow work, all are being done. Learn to accept all parts of yourself and that a lot of stuff has been put by this world onto you. Start being your own friend, you will start getting rid of the shame, your environment caused you. Self-acceptance made me accept my own mistakes and also whatever wrong was done to me.
If you find your own mistakes, it’s okay to take time to feel the regret, give yourself time to grieve. But after a point, you have to stop grieving and forgive yourself. Some people might have done something, that isn’t forgivable morally. But all you can do is free yourself from resentment. You do not have to carry someone else’s pain anymore. Free yourself. People get their Karma eventually. Your focus should not be about them getting their Karma back, but about taking your power back, giving yourself a chance to live your true authentic self.
Share is not an easy thing to come out of, but you are strong and you can do it. You do not need to share your bad experiences with everyone, but if you will look around, there will be 2-3 people in your life, who will be ready to accept all parts of you. I found that in my family, I never expected it to turn out that way, but they have been through everything with me.
Look around, share it with someone who knows what listening to shame means, who loves you unconditionally, who has a compassionate heart and makes you feel safe. If that is not possible, be your own friend, share things with yourself, learn to console yourself. All you need to do is, be true to yourself. Whatever you show to the world, at least don’t hide the truth from yourself. If you that, your soul suffers with it, I have experienced it personally.
You can always go for therapy, it’s a therapists job to make you feel comfortable and safe to share all your emotions with them. Please do not suffer in silence (adding this part after watching the new today).
Shadow is the part of yourself that you have rejected, out of your own insecurities, because of trauma, the moments of shame and feeling worthless. All those are acknowledged as a shadow. Most of the times, what you hate about others, is also a part of your shadow. Once you have done shadow work, you will know the difference, you will experience self-fulfilment.
So I just shared something personal, yes I have been in love. Every time I thought now I have found the one, I was disappointed, I have a pretty normal life, just like everyone. I thought trying to fix everything on my own in a relationship is unconditional love, then I started noticing this unconditional love is not bringing me happiness as it should have, I learnt to let people go.
The more you want to be right, the more in ego you are.
Now I am not saying that there’s something wrong in being right. But there are people who always just want to be right, they will do anything to prove the other person wrong. It’s like a war for them or may give them a sense of control, or maybe power, they can go to extent of manipulation and demeaning you, just to prove themselves right.
For some people it’s so important to be right, then whenever they are wrong, it becomes an argument for them, which they want to win at any cost. ‘My way or the highway’ type of thinking. Why is it so important to be right? Because it satisfies your ego. Or maybe you never learnt what it means to argue as a team to resolve an issue and not make it a war where only one can win. For some people it’s a coping mechanism to feel safe in a relationship, to always have things their way.
It affects our relationships so much. Listening is so important but people don’t realise. This is a behavioural pattern that is also created while growing up. It happens only because of ego, learn to tame your ego and you will have better healthier relationships.
Relationships should be based on ‘In this together’ not against each other.
Think, what matters, a relationship which is win-win for both, or for only one person.
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This one just hit me. It took me a long time to learn that I am sensitive to energies. When I accepted this, it led me to accept that I am an Empath.
I was just writing my diary and feeling exhausted after interacting with other people. Whenever this happens I observe myself if it’s because of other’s energies. I thought of sharing this on my blog because it takes a lot of time (years) to learn how your body responds to energies.
If you are interacting with someone, you are in harmony with, it’s not going to make much difference, but only make you happier. This is why everyone prefers to have positive people in their life.
Next comes when you interact with lower energy/vibration people, it drains your energy too. So for a few hours even after the interaction, I can feel dull, it also gives me slight pain in my lower back, which is not my bones, but a feeling of a muscle tear. That is what happens when you absorb others’ lower energies.
Next level is a psychic attack/energy attack. Don’t take this as some voodoo stuff, it’s very common for empaths. Suppose if you are in a troubling relationship with a toxic person, going through a rough phase, most of the time both people are thinking about each other, so this creates an energetic cord if some negative energy is coming highly directed towards you. You are going to feel it. It feels like a pain in the back area, sometimes up to the neck.
For clearing your energy, you can reduce interactions with negative people, meditate, relaxing music, have healthy foods to keep you in good energy. You can also take relaxing hot water baths, use sage smudging sticks, go outside and have a walk. Walk barefoot on the grass and ground yourself. One simple way is to say, “it’s you energy, not mine”, to detach. Do a 5-minute mediation in the morning to protect yourself with a bubble of white light.
This is why it gets exhausting for empaths to work in toxic environments. If it’s regular, it starts affecting their eating & sleeping habits. Productivity, mental, emotional and physical health.
It takes a selfless person to do all the healing work. So if you are doing it, appreciation from the universe for you.
It takes a lot of dedication to work on all the wounds, some of which are not your own, they come from society, your environment, your ancestors.
Self-love involves healing, because when you heal you create such good karma for yourself and all the generations that are going to come after you. When you heal yourself, you present authenticity to your connections, you give them true unconditional love.