Never compare yourself to anyone around. Every person is different and perfect in its own imperfections.
Don’t get caught up in the cycles of trying to win over people that you envy, just to make your self feel better again. Work on the part that you feel is lacking in you.
So I have been posting about how starseeds make soul contracts to be abused or struggle for first half of their life. Because to overcome it, they have to heal themselves and do shadow work. This way they become healers and explore their innate gifts and later they can teach about healing techniques and shadow work to others, second half of their life.
I have also been posting about how universe uses karma to temper stubborn people who resist change and awakening, to make surrender to healing and inner work and ascension.
But honestly I do not think it was my karma at all, even in past. Otherwise those people won’t be getting any of their karma back right.
I see more people blinded by jealousy than blinded by love. Now, this is going to trigger a lot of people, so read further only if you are ready to self-reflect.
I don’t feel jealous but being an empath I do feel the energy of jealousy in anyone else on another level. The more haters I struggle with, the more I learn about jealousy.
People think I always had an easy life, they think I always had it easy in my life.. no one tried to understand that behind this brave face there is a fair share of struggles, I have struggled more than anyone knows. It made me strong, that strength makes me look brave and happy, and I do work on healing myself so that pain doesn’t show on my face. It doesn’t mean I was never sad or broken.
Sometimes for love, for approval, for the opinions of people, we try to change ourselves. We feel we need to adjust with others and change ourselves but how much?
Have you realised what it feels to be someone who you are not. It just takes the life out of you. The price that you pay is more than anything. Be self-aware.
Last year.. I got myself flowers, got a good deal too.
Some days it’s good to make yourself happy.
I worked in a very toxic environment in 2018. My narc ex had already started ghosting me after I joined there. I wanted to change my job and start my YouTube channel but looks like he didn’t like my progress. Then at this job, people were so damn toxic, it was hard for me to breathe there, and with all that heartbreak. I was slowly learning to live myself. I brought myself some flowers on the way to work, I was trying to find that love for myself again. It’s only for 80 rs, I got a good deal. But low self-esteemed people cannot accept that a girl can buy herself flowers. Coz she knows her finances. They also didn’t like it that I could talk about my own skill set in a positive way. Today I want to say to them all.
Be the way you want to be and let everyone else also be the way they want to be. Let go of all the expectations you have from yourself and others.
This is true on the terms of expectations. But not when it comes to personal boundaries, always be thoughtful that your excuse for being yourself is not harming someone else’s space. Be respectful to others.
When you start shining in your authenticity. Some people start to admire you, but some people try to steal your shine. Like they try to paint the bulb black so it’s 70 Watts shine reduces to 40 Watts shine. But what if you keep turning it up to 100W then 200W. They are going to be like “oh, it’s too bright, it’s too bright, turn it down”. But when you don’t turn it down, they change their way.
Everyone knows how much I have been through but I am finally learning to completely forgive people who did wrong to me. Except those who don’t respect women and I have still not found a reason to forgive harassers. It’s a crime and it will be.
I walked away from all of you. Some of you are still the same, some of you learnt the lesson and changed, some of you have finally started to self reflect, some of you regret how you hurt me, some of you regret all your past actions and how you kept hurting people, some of you want to restart your life from zero, some of you learnt to work on yourself when you saw me choosing myself over anything.
It’s time to get serious in life, to find that #determination for yourself.
If you want to be successful in your career, you need to work hard to achieve your #goals. You need to work on your mental health, you need to heal your past wounds, you need to make amends with people in your life and have a work-life balance. Every great person was made out of these qualities.