Life is a journey. Some days you are gonna meet people who share the same path as you. Some days you are gonna meet people who don’t.
Some days you enjoy the present, some other days you plan the future, some days you miss the past. Some days you will find the life to be very easy, other days to be so tough that you want to give up. It’s always going to be two steps forward, one step backwards.
Last year.. I got myself flowers, got a good deal too.
Some days it’s good to make yourself happy.
I worked in a very toxic environment in 2018. My narc ex had already started ghosting me after I joined there. I wanted to change my job and start my YouTube channel but looks like he didn’t like my progress. Then at this job, people were so damn toxic, it was hard for me to breathe there, and with all that heartbreak. I was slowly learning to live myself. I brought myself some flowers on the way to work, I was trying to find that love for myself again. It’s only for 80 rs, I got a good deal. But low self-esteemed people cannot accept that a girl can buy herself flowers. Coz she knows her finances. They also didn’t like it that I could talk about my own skill set in a positive way. Today I want to say to them all.
When you start shining in your authenticity. Some people start to admire you, but some people try to steal your shine. Like they try to paint the bulb black so it’s 70 Watts shine reduces to 40 Watts shine. But what if you keep turning it up to 100W then 200W. They are going to be like “oh, it’s too bright, it’s too bright, turn it down”. But when you don’t turn it down, they change their way.
We can fall asleep anytime, anywhere. This is a picture taken in my Masi’s wedding, must be the same day 12th May. My cousin sent me this picture from their photo album. I don’t know why the photographer clicked this one, probably because it’s funny. Or maybe he rarely finds kids sleeping like this, so unapologetic.
My sister and I, are not twins, but we have been raised like we are. We wore the same clothes for a long time because we share the same taste. When we started living in hostels, sometimes we would wear the same outfits and not realise why everyone is looking at us, so we decided to never shop the same again. We have stopped caring about it, over time, finally grown up.
It’s fun, to be so free, that you are not shy enough to sleep anywhere if you want to. This is we why don’t fit in, we never learnt to, we make our own way. We always had each other’s back, never had to look up to anyone else.
P.S. I am starting to post non-spiritual content also. Let’s bring the vibe of positive energy.
This one actually I realised over time. People still try to see me as the person I was a year back or two years back or three years back. Sometimes even five to ten years back. I try to tell them that I have changed. It feels like I have been changing everyday, this is how a self-improvement journey looks like. You keep improving and there’s no end to it, there is always so much to explore about life.
Let’s take this the other way. I first thought of sharing my past on the blog and then I feel like there’s no need because people need to know the new me that I am now, not the old me. I have completely changed and this new person is so much better than what she used to be. I feel proud of her. I respect the old one because she fought through all of her struggles and never gave up. My past made me the person I am now, so I accept it. But now I am totally different.
There’s one more side of this coin. Sometimes we keep living in the sorrow of what happened years back and don’t realise how much time has passed by. Everyone needs to pull themselves back into the present. Life is always about the present, not about the past or future.
Don’t let your past define you. Your self-worth is not dependent on it. Always pull yourself back from the past, into the present.
Today is not the same as yesterday. Tomorrow will not be the same as today.
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It’s summer here in Bangalore & I can remember my childhood days totally. If you are an Indian and 90’s kid, remember the fun, freedom and happiness, the summer vacation used to bring to each of us. We would wait for the summers to arrive whole year. We used to be free souls and happy from within for no big reasons.
These days when I look around, I struggle to find people who are happy like we used to be in childhood. I see people smiling, laughing, enjoying, partying. I see all kind of joyful people who are now adults but I don’t see that absolute happiness in anyone.