I finally want to open up about what changed in my family dynamic with the timeline shift. In the last timeline I was my daddy’s girl, everyone who knows me knows this. In this timeline I am my mommy’s girl.
With the timeline shift, everything has changed. My parents’ and even my extended family’s educational degrees, job history, life history too.
My dad used to be an empath, now he is a normally stoic man. It’s no one’s fault, these people don’t even remember how things used to be. My parents had to put up a lot with me. They changed according to my perspective, but I also changed according to theirs. But they never reacted to the timeline shift, I did. They have seen me grieving their loss in front of their eyes, I tried to keep everything inside but I don’t think I was successful. They accepted me as I am, thinking that I keep changing and transforming because of my awakenings anyway. I miss how things used to be. I didn’t go back to Bangalore yet, because I am learning to bond with my new family (the same family with a new dynamic feels like a new family). Out of the last 5 months since I came home, 2 months got wasted in spiritual warfare because of the dark karmic. I didn’t even get to spend time with my parents in that period.
One of my Gurus taught me to work hard in silence, let your success make the noise.
He was my English teacher and really worked hard on my writing and speaking the language. I topped the class, but he appreciated me for always being humble to all my classmates, and I learnt that is the right way to live .
Do you know what I call myself in my head? “A warrior”.
I just identified sometime back that core of my personality is courage. Not only I want to do great things but I am born to do it.
Some people underestimate me. They think they will be able to find my weakness through my blog. Which actually means that I am so strong that I need to be studied to find out my weaknesses. Well, I am going to take this as a compliment.
I became strong even before I started writing. It takes courage to go public on social media, it takes more courage to start a blog, it takes more courage to work on 2 passions at a time, it takes more courage to open your heart to write, it takes even more courage to dedicate your life to a selfless purpose.
Everyday I bring more courage in myself than yesterday. Call me whatever. I never give up.
The abuser is always a person who does not even know how to regulate his/her own emotions. They can not end the cycle of abuse, never. It always takes the victim to make a decision, once the victim decides, he/she can end the cycle. How?
If with a Narcissist, do not give them what they want. Don’t give them drama. If already past that stage, start showing them the mirror, the Narcissists, they fear coming face to face with their own reality.
(Showing a mirror to Narcissist or walking away, both are a form of compassion for them. Just do not engage in the drama and give them a chance of self-reflection. I know it never works, they never are able to self reflect so much, but maybe they start seeing the truth one by one, victim by victim for their whole life. And probably when they get old, they can recall what they did.)
If it’s not a Narcissist, only a toxic person, don’t engage. Don’t engage with them. They are people who are in so much pain inside, that they want to create the same reality outside. They become self-destructive.
If it’s a person who has some kind of power over you, legally. Walk away (Yes, it sounds like an escape, but read it till the end). Now you would say but then I want to prove myself, my worth, I want to take back everything that they have damaged, my image, recognition everything. But no, you do not engage. You trying to prove your worth keeps you in a cycle, that’s what they want. Instead, you acknowledge your worth on your own and leave. Move on to next phase of your life, prove yourself there and these people will get their lessons on their own.
Walking away is a power, it’s such a big power in itself. When you walk away, you show them the difference between you and them. That you are not willing to waste time on these stupid games. Always remember, walking away is power. It will save you from a lot of misery.
Take back your power, do not put your worth in their hands, do not define your worth by how they treat you. Do not wait for them to accept your worth and treat you right. You are worthy, on your own. You are an amazing fantabulous person, just as you are. Never forget your own worth.
And you never know, if you are strong enough to take this decision, maybe God will smile and give you a chance to prove yourself, just before you are about to leave. I got that chance & I love my decisions now.
I choose to be a fighter, I choose to be a protector, I choose to be a defender, I choose to be a nurturer.
I choose to fight the wrong, I choose to be the voice for justice, I choose to make the noise, I choose to be the change, I choose to be fearless, I choose to be unstoppable.
I choose to be a rebel, a dreamer, a truth teller, a way shower. But first, I choose to be a human.
Today is the day when I cannot control my anger anymore. I have seen every kind of pain. Sometimes the pain and anger creeps in and gets on my nerves. Sometimes I wonder why me , why I always had breakthroughs in all those struggles. Then I realise it’s a life of destiny and I choose to take the call to be the voice.