After I filed papers in the first company, I was doing better everyday, but I had the stress about finding a job again. When I took a month’s break, I was doing better. When I joined the next job, I was excited to finally start the working again. But that year I lost a lot of friendships, it was some 25-30 friends that I cut off. And if you include normal friends, work colleagues and old work colleagues, the count had was 60.
First month in that job was fine. I had also learnt to manage energetic boundaries with toxic people. Whatever happened in 2018, gave me clarity that I’m an empath and I need to learn how to set boundaries. But soon they started bullying me. And then I started feeling the depression again. It was a different issue but everything reminded me of the past, that I was trying to get away from. Everyday I used to ask myself why are these people jealous of me? I have nothing left, my love is gone, then the humiliation that I faced with harassment. Everyday coming back from office, all I could think about was the last year. I had so much anxiety that I was hiding. All the time I would keep shrinking inside and no one would even get a clue. I had slowly started hating the city. Big cities and selfish people. Generally, people block their heart chakra after heartbreak in romantic relationships, but mine got blocked because of the harassment.
So I have been posting about how starseeds make soul contracts to be abused or struggle for first half of their life. Because to overcome it, they have to heal themselves and do shadow work. This way they become healers and explore their innate gifts and later they can teach about healing techniques and shadow work to others, second half of their life.
I have also been posting about how universe uses karma to temper stubborn people who resist change and awakening, to make surrender to healing and inner work and ascension.
But honestly I do not think it was my karma at all, even in past. Otherwise those people won’t be getting any of their karma back right.
You are an individual life on your own. Life is a gift from god and so do not take it for granted. Do not live for other people be it a lover, family, friends, colleagues, authority, society anyone.
God gave you a life of freedom, he never asked you to suppress yourself for others.
Those people, even their life is a gift from god.. but sometimes the ego becomes so big that humans start thinking they are greater than god. And then comes the day when God puts people in their right place.
For starseeds: You are different, you were born different. Because you chose to break ancestral traumas & generations of depression.
No matter who tells you what about yourself. Remember you are A GIFT TO HUMANITY FROM GOD.
People can’t understand it because it will take them to transcend their ego. To be thankful that finally someone has been born in their family line to heal all of them, to transmute their karma. They don’t need to be thankful only for bringing someone to life, but also grateful for being chosen to bring an ascended soul to life.
People need to stop trying to control and judge starseeds. Instead be grateful that they have a starseed in their life.
It is believed that control is power. But is it really true?
Why do we want control? Is it really related to love or not?
Control is good when it comes to self. To make conscious decisions and actions you need inner stability. Brahmakumaris say “Law with self and love with others”.
But usually what people do is they struggle to have self-control on their own thoughts, negative emotions, reactions and hence their own life. To compensate for it, they do try to gain control from the outside, that’s what ego loves. The more low vibrational & weaker the soul is, the more it loves control.
Do you often call your friends and complain about how you don’t like your life much. It’s time to stop doing the same things over and over again, change your actions, change your thinking and hence change your life.
Acknowledge the fact that there is a choice. You have a choice to move if you don’t like where you are. Make that choice to change yourself, work deeply to understand life. Learn what it takes to be where you want to go, try and move.
Life is a journey. Some days you are gonna meet people who share the same path as you. Some days you are gonna meet people who don’t.
Some days you enjoy the present, some other days you plan the future, some days you miss the past. Some days you will find the life to be very easy, other days to be so tough that you want to give up. It’s always going to be two steps forward, one step backwards.