Last year.. I got myself flowers, got a good deal too.
Some days it’s good to make yourself happy.
I worked in a very toxic environment in 2018. My narc ex had already started ghosting me after I joined there. I wanted to change my job and start my YouTube channel but looks like he didn’t like my progress. Then at this job, people were so damn toxic, it was hard for me to breathe there, and with all that heartbreak. I was slowly learning to live myself. I brought myself some flowers on the way to work, I was trying to find that love for myself again. It’s only for 80 rs, I got a good deal. But low self-esteemed people cannot accept that a girl can buy herself flowers. Coz she knows her finances. They also didn’t like it that I could talk about my own skill set in a positive way. Today I want to say to them all.
This one actually I realised over time. People still try to see me as the person I was a year back or two years back or three years back. Sometimes even five to ten years back. I try to tell them that I have changed. It feels like I have been changing everyday, this is how a self-improvement journey looks like. You keep improving and there’s no end to it, there is always so much to explore about life.
Let’s take this the other way. I first thought of sharing my past on the blog and then I feel like there’s no need because people need to know the new me that I am now, not the old me. I have completely changed and this new person is so much better than what she used to be. I feel proud of her. I respect the old one because she fought through all of her struggles and never gave up. My past made me the person I am now, so I accept it. But now I am totally different.
There’s one more side of this coin. Sometimes we keep living in the sorrow of what happened years back and don’t realise how much time has passed by. Everyone needs to pull themselves back into the present. Life is always about the present, not about the past or future.
Don’t let your past define you. Your self-worth is not dependent on it. Always pull yourself back from the past, into the present.
Today is not the same as yesterday. Tomorrow will not be the same as today.
Thank you for reading it till the end. If you have any queries, let me know in the comment section.
The Pretty Smart Techie 